Blah. I am tired and missing my husband and baby. At least I was able to see both of them for a few hours before coming to work tonight as Troy made a speedy drive home early. I love him.
But I was looking for a new job today as I have been for awhile. My current job environment is TOXIC and there is little room to grow or learn. I feel very stagnant. Is it easy work...yep. Is it enjoyable work...yep (I love the educational aspect of my job, teaching families and other nurses and who wouldn't just love the babies!) But...rotating...the politics...the template...the hours...ugh. I am mentally fried some days...from the sheer lack of pizzazz. There was a job opening for a pediatric perinatal RN associated with the Clinic. I might talk to Troy about applying. I don't know what the plan will be though when we have baby number 2. Will I still want to work? Will I want to stay home? Do I want to change jobs or just cut back to 1 day a week? I wish to go PRN but alas that won't work as easily as I had hoped. I do enjoy working. I enjoy getting out of the house and interacting with other adults. Don't get me wrong, I love Madison and I love being a mama, but I also appreciate being a nurse.

God,
Guide my life according to your plan. Place me in the position I need, whether that is at home or in the working world. Help me to accept my place. Give Troy patience as I work to figure this all out. Amen.